I've found that we each have a story to tell, and our stories are similar. Yet they're different. We each have something to contribute, and I welcome all of your contributions. What I write isn't gospel; it's merely my opinion, my feelings, my life, and how I have navigated in the past couple of years.
I welcome your differing opinions, your experiences, your battles. Why you came here and what you've found. How I can help make this better so we all can heal, or if we're almost through our healing, how we can grow into better, more enlightened people.
I stumbled upon your site when I was searching for "just got out of a relationship with a BPD". You don't understand how much your perspective, insight, feelings, and anecdotes have helped me. Although my relationship with the BPD lasted only two tumultuous months, I truly felt that she was "the one". It was the kind of relationship that you felt the proverbial instant connection with. It was so phenomenal that I thought about the prospect of marrying her one month into it! Then the problems started to happen - similar to what you experienced but without the cheating accusations.
ReplyDeleteI agree with your assessment and evaluation about the prognosis of life after "death". I feel, due to reading your posts and the book "Stop Walking on Eggshells", that I will make a recovery in due time. It will not be a full recovery, and I certainly don't want it to be. I believe everything and everyone you come into contact with in life has a purpose and meaning, and it should change you to be a better person.
For whatever it's worth, I appreciate your time and dedication to this site. Please, for all the NON's out there, keep this going! BPD is a pervasive and debilitating condition that deals a lot of pain for all parties involved.
Whoever you are, may God bless you and help you heal.
Additionally, I thought these lyrics might give some insight into what the BPD's thought process might be:
ReplyDeleteIIO - At The End
When you're away, I feel I'm empty
I lose my mind
But when you're around, I take for granted
Most of our time
Honey you say that I'm cold
And sometimes I'm out of control
Baby, you know how I am, at the end, you're always mine
I don't mean to when I hurt you
But I need you, I can show you
Just let me be when I'm crazy,
At the end you're still my only.
Right when you're gone, I really miss you
You got my heart.
When you come back, I just wanna kiss you
And it tears you apart.
Honey do make me stay,
Believe me it's better this way.
Baby I'm true and I'm real.
I'm giving you all that I feel.
Sweety, I'm trying my best,
To give you the most and no less.
Darling, I'm true and I'm real,
I'm giving you all that I feel.
[End]
Not at all rational, as one can see...